Ultrasound

Yesterday we had our nuchal translucency scan. I woke up excited, it was the last 12 week scan we'd ever have, it was the last time we'd see our baby on a monitor for the first time.
So many firsts and lasts. And then it got me thinking about all the firsts and lasts we've already shared with Seb. Life goes on, we wake up everyday to new things and also the same old things.
Same old breakfast routine with new words spilling from a tiny mouth, same old nap time routine with a new book etc etc.
These things seem tiny but they are so huge and so important and I just want to soak them all in and never forget.

This is the last time ill be pregnant, the last time ill have morning sickness, the last time ill carry a life inside me. Ill mourn these times when they're done but i look forward to the copious amounts of new times ill get to have. First feed, first laugh, first smile, first words, so so many firsts to come and not only with the new baby but with Seb too.

The scan went fantastic, the little sucker was moving around like it wasn't trapped in a squishy sack. It was incredible, and then it looked at us, that was...I have no words. You could see its eye lense, seriously, something out of the terminator. I'm all for the miracle that is growing a baby but sometimes I think about it too hard and it slightly freaks me the eff out.

Any who, after the freaky stare down, we saw the doctor to find out the results of the tests. He told us we were made to have babies, we should have a bus load, not likely dude but J was pretty stoked when told he had super sperm, just incase ya'll wanted to know.

Things went down hill after that, too many toilet trips, fatigue and nausea, oh the joys! I'd been feeling great since my last post so taking 10 steps backward, hit me like a truck. It happens, move forward, life won't end because of a shitty afternoon, these are the things I tell myself even though in the moment id rather be anywhere but on my bathroom floor.

I'm trying to stay positive and it's easier these days, less sickness and more sunlight, less anxiety and more laughter. Pregnancy is tough but it's only 9 months right?

I'd put some pictures up but you know how it is, I'm allowed to be lazy.