Feeling refreshed

A few posts ago i wrote about taking a break from the land of the internet, mostly instagram. If you follow me on there, you will see i am back, for 2 solid weeks, i did not browse my feed or take one photo with the intent to put it on the app.

I felt refreshed, i woke up and grabbed a coffee and my book instead of my phone. I payed more attention to real life and hanging out with my babies. It really was exactly what i needed at that time. I was done feeling unworthy, alone in a room full of people, like i had something to prove.

Slowly I have come back to the reality that instagram is not real life. I know, its so obvious right? But sometimes when its all around you it becomes an alternate universe, one i dont really want to be part of. I love that i can scroll through and see over a years worth of memories and that is something i will always be thankful for.

Im back online and have a completely different outlook, ive developed thicker skin and am using it only when i have absolutely nothing to do, or basically, when i feel like it.

Its my party i can do what i want.

A walker

My girls walking! She beat Seb by about 2 weeks, i gots me some lazy bums! I fully thought because she crawled at 6 months she would be walking by one, she totally took her time though and in hindsight im glad.

Dais is my clingy baby, they both wanted to be carried all the time but Seb was way happier to play on his own then little miss ever would.

Ive been wishing for her to walk so she could gather some independence and boy has she got it. I love how proud of herself she gets when she makes it further and further down the hall, i love that she can keep up with Seb and that he wants to play with her now.

I know walking begins the hectic times because running comes soon after but for now im basking in the glory of this huge milestone.

24, a year for..

On Sunday i turned another year older.

Twenty four will be for change.
It will be for looking after myself before others.

It will be for growing tougher skin, i wear my heart on my sleeve which is a blessing but a curse, i will finally learn when to voice my opinion or keep my thoughts to myself.

It will be for new adventures, it will be for soul searching.

It will be for health and for fun.

Now that no more babies are on the cards we can move forward, before and after Seb, we were planning, always planning, it takes 9 long months to grow a baby, 9 months where i dont feel like myself, 9 months that i always felt like i hit pause on our lives. Now we can make plans for our family, or complete family.
No more pausing, just moving forward, growing and changing, not only me but the four of us.

It will be a good year.