Lately

This week has been hard you guys. We're in the thick of the terrible two's and nothing could have prepared me for it. The days that J is at work are long, we've been spending most days just hanging around the house because the chances of Seb tantruming out is just too high and I cringe just thinking about it. The tantrums happen at home regardless but at least no one is around to see it. I know its all natural and it happens to the best of us but seriously!? Kid wont listen, Kid wont nap, he has ridiculous requests that I cannot fill and then he'll throw a fit when I try to explain. He'll ask for food and then will blatantly refuse to eat it. He will continue to climb on the bench after getting in trouble for doing it 1000 times before. I just don't get it, chances are neither does he.

I need to remind myself to not hold it against him and reassure the both of us that this is hard but it will pass. He can be the sweetest kid, he's so full of love and can be so damn amazing I just wish I saw it more these days.

When J comes home its another story, he'll be perfect for me and awful for him. I can see the jealousy building with his age. He hates it when we hug, when J and I were holding hands he kicked them apart, literally. If Seb is crying he wants me, all natural things right? It just adds to my exhaustion because I cannot wait for the help when J is home but I don't get it, and its not for lack of J trying, Seb just will not co-operate.

I just keep telling myself that without the hard times we wont know the good, and this is so true. I cherish every happy moment with Seb lately and I love the alone time I get with James I just need more of these times. I'm going to make time for both, that is my vow.