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Laying in bed feeling the odd sensations of this child kicking inside me and knowing pretty much exactly what she's doing in there. I can tell when she's asleep, what side she's favouring or when she's throwing a party. Then it got me thinking...that knowledge doesn't just stop when a baby is born, I can pretty well still gage what Seb is up too 99% of the time. I can tell if he's in his room if he's climbing his draws to get a book, in the toy box or throwing things out the window (generally the latter).

If he's downstairs I can go off the sound of a chair that he's climbing the bench, the opening of a microwave. I always know when he's sneaking chocolates. 

J took him to the lake a few months back now, while he pumped yabbies. I had a strange feeling the whole time and just kept thinking, I hope he's watching him close. Sure enough when they got home, Seb was drenched, he'd fallen in. Kid is quick. (he was fine of course)

It's strange these feelings we get as mothers, we bond when there inside us and it certainly seems to grow on the outside too. Its like a sixth sense.

We have found the key

The last two nights we have had a full nights sleep, hallelujah!! I don't even really know how it happened. Lots of 'stay in your bed' talks. 

The day naps still aren't going too well but the tantrum time is getting shorter. We took away Ted. Ted is Seb's stinky blanket that he's obsessed with. We told him if he stays in his bed he can have him back, he promised he would and he stopped the tears so we gave him his Ted and he went straight to sleep. He must really love that stinky rag. Who says you can't bribe your kids.

I was getting super worried about how Seb would be once the baby was born, considering he doesn't even like to share me with J but last night we visited my sister in law and niece and Seb was amazing! He just wanted to hold the baby and kiss her, he didn't even mind when I was giving her my attention. These last few days have made me hopeful. I know we'll have more hard times with sleeping and tantrums probably for the next...forever, it certainly makes me appreciate the easy times.

Lately

This week has been hard you guys. We're in the thick of the terrible two's and nothing could have prepared me for it. The days that J is at work are long, we've been spending most days just hanging around the house because the chances of Seb tantruming out is just too high and I cringe just thinking about it. The tantrums happen at home regardless but at least no one is around to see it. I know its all natural and it happens to the best of us but seriously!? Kid wont listen, Kid wont nap, he has ridiculous requests that I cannot fill and then he'll throw a fit when I try to explain. He'll ask for food and then will blatantly refuse to eat it. He will continue to climb on the bench after getting in trouble for doing it 1000 times before. I just don't get it, chances are neither does he.

I need to remind myself to not hold it against him and reassure the both of us that this is hard but it will pass. He can be the sweetest kid, he's so full of love and can be so damn amazing I just wish I saw it more these days.

When J comes home its another story, he'll be perfect for me and awful for him. I can see the jealousy building with his age. He hates it when we hug, when J and I were holding hands he kicked them apart, literally. If Seb is crying he wants me, all natural things right? It just adds to my exhaustion because I cannot wait for the help when J is home but I don't get it, and its not for lack of J trying, Seb just will not co-operate.

I just keep telling myself that without the hard times we wont know the good, and this is so true. I cherish every happy moment with Seb lately and I love the alone time I get with James I just need more of these times. I'm going to make time for both, that is my vow.

Give me all the foods.

I am the crappiest of all crap mummy bloggers. I thought when I got pregnant I'd have so much to write about, but really who wants to hear that I've sat in my pjs until 2pm everyday? Not very interesting stuff. 

We sailed through the storm of Seb's none sleeping issues, he went back to normal in the blink of an eye. The only thing going on with him now is he wants to sleep in with me. He goes in his own bed fine but wakes up through the night asking for a "cuddle-hug", how can I refuse? I don't really mind it for now, he's never going to be this age again and in a few months he's going to have to share me, that's going to be tough. 

I've started buying some little things for baby girl, has anyone else found it overwhelming when looking for girls clothes? There is so much out there. I can't do too much shopping yet, we're still looking for houses to move into in June so instead of carting more stuff around ill just start fresh then.

This weekend is Mother's Day woo! I plan on passing off most of my motherly duties to James because he's actually home this holiday muhaha. We actually have a great weekend planned. We've already had breakfast with J's fam now I'm laying in bed while the boys are off at the shop. Pure, quiet, bliss. 

After Seb's nap we have a baby shower/30th birthday then tomorrow we have a Mother's Day lunch planned with all the family. I'm going to stuff my face, I'm pregnant.