I love instagram right? Right.
Everyone loves instagram, the only thing I don't love about instagram is the anxiety I feel on a Saturday/Sunday morning when I open up my feed and see pictures of nights out.
Is it because I was asleep by 8 pm Saturday night? That I was awake at 3 am tending to a crying baby? Maybe.
When I have had nights out since becoming a mother I've rarely enjoyed it. The next morning, I hate that I drank too much, spent too much money, most likely made a fool of myself and can't spend my day playing with my child because I'm hungover and tired.
I know all these things so why do I still get jealous?
I have a problem with peer pressure, it's weird and i hate it. Another example, everyone is pregnant. We have plans to have another baby in the future but not now. I have my reasons and i am sticking to them, but when finding out about all the pregnancies happening around me it makes me want another, now. Its ridiculous because i don't.
slightly conflicting right? i see people going out, i want to be them, i see people getting pregnant, i want to be them too. I need to get out of my head for a while and just keep being me and stop wanting more then i already have, life is great to why these feelings for change? I'm putting it down to the change in the weather.
Writing this makes me feel silly, it doesn't make much sense.
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