Sebastian

You are 1 in 4 sleeps, holy crow!
You are pretty darn hilarious.
You bop to you toys music, you laugh when we laugh, you 'cough' when we cough.
You can climb the couch, the windowsills and the stairs.
You must think I'm a piece of furniture too, you climb me the most.
The window is your favorite time wasting activity, it's the same view every day but you find it so so entertaining and watching you is the most entertaining part of my day.
You're changing pretty rapidly and getting smarter by the day. My little sponge, where did you learn all these neat tricks?
This past year has been the best one of my life because of your presence. I love you x

Raw

The weekend is almost at a close and i have nothing to show for it. (I have also been unwell for a few days)
Yesterday was the Soundwave festival that i was oh so excited for but did not attend, i sold my ticket.
Facebook peers have been posting photos of events attended and status' of activities.
I have been laying in bed and demolished 2 seasons of one tree hill while watching a crazy almost 1 year old who has been destroying my house. Watch, clean, feed, tidy repeat. this is my life.
This is the first weekend James has been away working.
We usually would've done activities together, dinners, walks, shopping and BBQ's but this weekend I have done nada.
I don't know what it is about weekends and why they make me feel like i should be accomplishing something, but they do.
I don't get invited places often and I'm assuming it's because i have a son.
i do not understand how this apparently stands in the way of my social life weekend after weekend. He has grandparents and sitters but it is just him and i (and J) most times.
Sure it hurts, does it make me regret my decision of becoming a mother and wife? absolutely not! I just wish my friends would see me as a friend, a 21 year old instead of just a mother and a wife.

Partying death

The Peb is sick! Tuesday night (Wednesday morning) he woke up hysterically crying, I went in and he was HOT like crazy, nothing i ever felt before.
There was no calming him either. Panadol brought his temp down as well as a cool cloth but he was so so sad it broke my heart.
After about half an hour he seemed a lot better so I put him back in his bed. Half an hour after that he was still awake...playing even. Little terd right? He came into our bed and climbed, tumbled and chatted before falling asleep, for half an hour! I was beyond exhuasted. He cried for another hour but thankfully J took the shift and I got a bit of sleep.
We took him to the doctors, he said seb could have hand, foot and mouth virus. Eekk!
He had 2 tiny sores on the bottom of his foot that we were told to watch. They didn't spread so we ruled out HFM.
That night was more of the same. He seemed pretty okay throughout the day but night time, not so much.
I started feeling odd Thursday, nothing serious just not 100%.
J left for Dalby to start his first 5 on 5 off shift.
Pretty much as soon as he left, it hit me, chills and shakes, headaches , nausea and temperatures. I was not looking forward to the night ahead with Seb not sleeping and me feeling like death warmed up.
For the rest of the afternoon Peb was a champ, playing alone, snuggling and being so darn cute, I had hope.
That hope was crushed. He woke at 10 and I put him in bed with my shaky fevery self. He was alright from then on looking all comfy taking up my whole bed.
Then these young neighbor girls were partying, making a damn racket, right outside my window. They were talking about sex and other yuck things at the top of their lungs. I wanted to go down there and give them a piece of my mind, but another neighbour beat me too it. I was quite thankful as I'm probably their age.
Then it got me thinking, I am old! Maybe not in age but mentally. What feels like not too long ago, those girls were me. After hearing them it made me thankful for everything I do have. Even though I'm sick as a dog, taking care of a cranky baby and maintaining a house, I would hate to be in their head upon waking this morning.
So for now I am in bed with multiple seasons of one tree hill, the baby is asleep and I plan to be soon too. It's Friday night, I am such a party animal.

Oh man

I mentioned in my last post about Peb turning 1 in a few days and we are about everything pirate. If you read his room post you might've guessed.
Any how, a week or so ago my ma and I took a wander around the mums and bubs market, which was literally at the top of my street. They had such amazing stuff! More for girls but that's usually the way isn't it. We did, however, pass an incredible store that sold gifts and home decore and spied this baby!

Freaking most awesome clock I have ever seen in my entire life!
Mum bought it for peb for his bday and I am ever so stoked!
I could've spent a million dollars in that stall if I was able, you should check their facebook page out, you will not be disappointed,

Blergh

It is ten thousand degrees. I'm literally melting and exhausted. Seb is being a cranky monster, I just cannot deal.

This is the sky outside though, the heaven is about to open up and pour, thank the lord! I cannot be happier, summer storms are the bomb.

In other news, the Peb is 1 in 11 days, wtf! He is one crazy chicken and boy does he have a temper, im looking forward to the future with this little mr!

Currently

Obsessing over: Leopard print mocassins! There is an amzing pair at myer but i cant justify the $90 price tag but it has now come to my attention that there is a $14.95 pair at Big W! also obsessing over what to pack for our weekend in the country. Sebastian gets so filthy crawling around in the dirt, im not sure if ive packed enough..or too much!
Working on: This and packing and a finance plan, all the fun stuff.
Thinking about: How the drive will go out to Dalby. It's three hours and Seb doesnt like the car for long periods of time. We're going out with a friend and her two sons so im hoping they all keep each other entertained.
Anticipating: Seeing J when we get out to Dalby. This is the reason for the trip. This is his new working town, if you could call it a town.
Listening to: The television in the background. Although i have been listening to a lot of you me at six lately and am getting teary about missing there show in a couple of weeks.

Eating: nothing, i am going to bake these muffins for Sebby today. Im stuck for snack ideas for this boy. Any ideas would be greatly appreciated :)

Wishing: Money grew on trees.

Thanks Danielle from sometimes sweet!

Just write

When Sebastian was a baby, well more of a baby then he is now, he was being horrid to his poor mama. I know he didn't mean it and truthfully I can't tell you exactly what it was he was doing to make me so upset.
I ended up leaving the house some time in the afternoon before I went crazy. I met one of my best friends in a coffee shop. We sat and talked while both our children napped (Seb was an angel in public) We got onto the subject of our babies, naturally, and I started crying. The day had got to me so bad I was crying in public. I cried about James and I doing everything on our own with no help from our family, I cried about the loss of my freedom and I cried about everyone lying about how they would be around. I was miserable and I really didn't have a valid reason. These things seem so ridiculous to me now.
I felt better after pouring out my heart but I was still sad.
I took Sebastian home and put him in his bed, he looked up at me and laughed! Laughed for the first time! It melted my heart and all the resentment I had felt that morning slipped away. Nothing else matters but my son and no matter how hard some days get, when I hear that sound the sun shines again.

Oh Sundays

How I hate the.
Ever since I can remember I have hated Sundays, I really don't have much of an idea why they have always just been so blah.
This particular Sunday is draggingggg! It's 10:30 am and I'm ready to go to bed and it be Monday. I feel as if I've been awake forever, I didn't get a good nights sleep because seb slept in our bed last night. MISTAKE! He is the worst.
Somehow he ended up taking up the whole bed, laying lengthways across where my head should have been, digging his tiny evil toes into me and pulling my hair. It was horrendous.
Then he wakes up at 6am and starts digging around in my mouth and clawing and James' eyes.
J has his last day at the induction today so he had to wake up anyway, this does not mean I had too though. If he was in his own bed he would've slept until 7:30 ish and that extra hour of sleep is glorious!
He's also teething which sucks big time, I've been trying to clean the place up with a nasty baby around my ankles or in my arms. He will not go to bed even though I know he must be tired and would've already been asleep by now on a normal day.
Sometimes being a parent is tough, especially on Sunday's.

A new chapter

Life is changing. FAST!

We are married..obviously, my hair was blond...now red, J starts his new job in a week and he got into his university course!

2012 didn't start all that great with the terrible weather leading to no work leading to no money leading to almost no wedding. Then the terrible weather causing us to change the hole wedding in 1 day! Everything has picked up and we couldn't be happier or more thankful to whoever is watching over us.

I died my hair red which is a huge change, I've been blond for-everrrr! I took the plunge in support of sebbs red locks and so people might stop asking where he got his gingerness from..WE DO NOT KNOW PEOPLE!!

J got a mining job, frick yes! It is so hard to find a consistent well paying job these days and mining jobs are extremely hard to get into, it's definitely WHO you know not WHAT you know. The only downside to a mines job is he will be working away, 5 days on and 5 days off which is a lot better then some other rotations miners do.

And then to J's associates degree, we don't know much yet but it's a 4 year course, distance education which is going to be tough but so so worth it in the end.

I love my family and I love j for the sacrifices he is making so we can have a comfortable life, I am so thankful he is my husband.

my sister

my ring baby

the handsomes

these are just a sneak peak! for some reason it is taking way too long to upload. I want to say the hugest thanks to Jess for the work she did on the day, your amazing!

The Deane's

We are married!
Life is still super crazy and so much going on.
Once I get all the photos in my hands they shall be on here!
It was such an amazing day and if you want a sneak peak watch our wedding video!

Eeeeeeeekk

Im getting married tomorrow!
All my family is arriving today and my Dad has been here since tueday, its been so so great to spend time with him, like i cant even express how great its been!
Wish me luck for tomorrow that its a calm and stress free day!
I'll more then likely be posting a tonne of pictures on my IG, @shmive.

Oh and Sebby is 11 months today! where has the time gone?