Give me summer.

This whole winter, we've been sick, mostly the kids, they've had a permanent cough and dripping nose. Aftet coming home from New Zealand to much warmer weather i thought things were looking up, until i woke up two days later with the flu that nightmares are made of.

Then i spread it to every direct member of my family and its still lingering. Seb has been a mess, not sleeping, barely eating and the whinging, oh lord i wish this flu temporarily made me deaf or maybe made him lose his voice. Wishful thinking. I know he's feeling crap but i dont think that should excuse his ass hole behaviour.

Im so ready for summer its not even funny, i need constant warmth and outdoor activities ei: the beach, i need to keep the kids outdoors soaking up the vitamin D and stop them from destroying my house.

We tried the park yesterday but the noses were flowing and Seb's legs apparently weren't working, it wasn't much fun but we got some cute pictures.

Now that she's one.

My Daisy girl hit the one year mark only a week ago and im noticing the toddler coming out of her more every day.

Im treasuring the tiniest moments with her because i have a feeling the hugs and baby snuggle times will be few and far between. We're working on weaning because that girl has some serious boob addiction and i feel that its now or never.

Shes a fierce girl, independent but so reliant at the same time. It makes me sad to think shes my last, the last baby ill carry in my arms, the last to do so many firsts. The last to figure out. Then i look at my boy, and im still figuring him out, he changes like the seasons but not like the weather, he changes slower now hes older but the changes are significant.

I guess there will always be new firsts and lasts with both of these kids and i need to look forward but hold the past close. Ill always remember the tiny breaths and fingers and hugs, ill just look toward the bigger breaths and fingers and hugs.

Bitten off more then i can chew (do?)

These four days are crazy town busy, i planned way too much without thinking how stressful it would be.

This morning Daisy had a cake smash shoot with an amazing photographer Janelle. It was incredible and beautiful and i just cant even!

In a few hours, J and i are heading to brisbane for a night out while my mum watches the babies. This is my first full night away from Daisy and my first night away from Seb in almost a year. Im excited/nervous/can't wait to be free. Hahaha just kidding but seriously its going to be great.

Tomorrow, Sayler (our puppy) starts puppy pre school, i need to set up Daisy's party and celebrate another amazing friends day of birth (hope youre reading  this Telsh) then sunday morning its party day and fathers day! So we get to celebrate Daisy and J all in one plus see so many family members and treasured friends. Its definitely party week up in here.

We then fly out to New Zealand first thing Monday morning and by first thing, i mean we have to leave the house at 3:30am. Too many things to get done but i have every confidence we can make it out alive.