Happy new year!

We actually saw in the new year last night! Last year we were in bed by 9, such a bust.
I didn't drink last night, I wanted to be fresh for the day of new beginnings. I'm so happy I made this decision.

We still had such a fun night with some of our closest friends, watching 2 sets of fireworks at my mother-in-laws apartment. We didn't have to struggle in crowds and we still had the best view. Go figure.

I know New Years resolutions are a bit silly but I love the feeling of starting fresh with some things and today seems like a great day to start.

-I will not be so hot headed when it comes to my son and husband, I'm going to be calm and understanding.
- I will walk 5 days a week
- I will kill people with kindness
- I will read more books
- I will pay off my credit card
- I will buy less clothes ;)

I have a feeling 2013 is going to be an awesome year.

Merry Christmas! (photo heavy post)

It's been a wonderful morning everyone!

Seb woke up at 5 am for snuggles and went back to the land of nod until 6:30.
We took him downstairs to where my Mum was sleeping and his new cubby house was waiting for him in the kitchen. He loves that cubby so much, he literally squealed with excitement when he saw it. No one else was allowed in, until breakfast where he let Granny feed him inside.

there were more photo's but my mum would kill me if i posted them.

 

 

 

Then my side of the family all opened presents together before James' family and one of my best friends came for breakfast.

 

Now that everyone has left with full tummies, the baby is sleeping, J has gone surfing and here i am relaxing. This afternoon will be filled with more food and families and i couldn't be happier about it.

Merry Christmas Everyone! x

Communication.

I've probably said this a million times and ill say it a million more but I'm going to say it again, Seb can full on communicate. He's picking up everything and he gets exactly what we're saying to him, it's amazing and scary at the same time.

He's so expressive, he says phrases at the right time apart from bless you which is said after he burps, it's hilarious.
His newest phrase is 'don't fall' which makes my heart melt, it's that cute.

Seb tells us when he wants to go to bed, by saying 'nigh nigh, bot bot?' Then says 'nigh mummy, nigh dada'.

He's growing up and it's definitely bittersweet but I'm so excited for our future.

Holiday spirit

This year, it really feels like holidays.
I have felt this festive since i was a child, maybe its because i have a child? who knows but i like it.

We have been living like we are on holidays lately, lots of swims and hanging out. It's disgustingly hot but being able to either walk down the road to the beach or drive for 10 minutes to the beautiful resort pools where my in-laws live is truly a blessing.

It got me thinking about how lucky we are to live on the Sunshine Coast. Families come here to holiday and we live here, Seb and i live the holidays lifestyle all year round, and J lives it for half the year. I'm also blessed to have the opportunity to be a SAHM. I have the best husband who provides for us and is gone for 5 days at a time just so we can live a comfortable life.

I'm usually a bit of a Grinch around this time of the year but this year i am so so thankful. We've had ups and downs just like every other year but i feel like my whole family has grown so much closer recently and I'm super excited to spend Christmas day with the majority of my family.
I'm excited to put on a feast for them, to unwrap presents with them, to laugh and be merry.

trial and error

Parenting is hard work guys, rewarding but hard sometimes.
I feel like I'm a bit anal with some things to do with Seb, nap times are the biggest.
I fret when i think he should be going down and hes not, or we're out and we should be home for him to go to bed.
Honestly its not that big of a deal right? I'm torn between the fact that he should be in a routine and do as i say because I'm the Mum and he needs me to make his life structured and what if hes not tired or he is tired but he's playing fine and behaving fine, whats another half hour going to hurt?

Well sometimes it does hurt, then naps run longer which means bed times are later or hes so over tired that he wont go to sleep (today), or he'll have a short hour nap and i wont get anything done.
man, even reading this I'm fretting,

Does it even matter in the grand scheme of things, he's usually a pretty awesome kid and i know he cant be awesome 24/7 or he would be classed as weird.

Should I just go with the flow, go off his tired signs and hope for the best or be strict with routine and freak out when something changes? ugh.

Culling in the new year.

The new year is fast approaching which puts me in the mood for culling. Furniture needs to be culled, people need to be culled, things need to be changed up.

I feel as though we have too much furniture in this house. Too many knick-knacks, to much stuff we don't use, I have too many clothes. Maybe I need to ebay some of my junk, it may not be junk for someone else.

Some of the people in my life are just people. Acquaintances if you will. People who I seem to do a lot for but wouldn't do the same for me. People who put me last aren't the people I need to be friends with.
I feel as though, if I make some room ill either have more time for the true friends or ill make some better friends.
In saying this though, I vow to be a better friend. I will treat people how they treat me. Friendships, lately, seem a lot more like relationships, breakups and all.

I wish for 2013 to be the best year yet x

My heart

Last night, I put Sebby in bed for a cuddle before his bed time.

He was still and silent pressed up against my back, i didn't want to move in case he had drifted off, so i ever so slightly turned my head to sneak a peak.

He looked up at me, said mummy, put his little arm around my neck and gave me a tiny kiss on my back.

My heart nearly exploded with love.

'Theyre the times that remind me why I became a mother.

 

 

21 months.

I feel as if next time I blink, my baby will be two, and then four, and then in high school and moving out!
Time really does go so fast.

For right now I want to remember the little things Seb does.

I love when he wraps his arms around my neck and gives me kisses.
I love when he calls me mummy.
I love that he will tell us he's ready for "nigh nigh's."
I love that he sings little songs to himself.
I love his funny little faces.

He is communicating better and better everyday, I'm excited for the future with this little guy.

Just write {vol 4}

The midnight hours are a total nightmare sometimes. Either I'm awake because my body is used to being woken at this time or it hears the little cries carried in from the other room.

 

 

I can't get back to sleep, this is when all the self doubt and nagging regret comes flooding in.

This is the time when I cringe at passed conversations, when I doubt my parenting, when I think the worst of every situation and then, somehow, in the mix of all these emotions I find sleep again, only to wake up refreshed, none of those midnight worries in my mind.

 

We're back

We're back in civilization, all my fears for the trip were confirmed. Seb hated sleep the whole time, worst at night but still pretty damn awful during the day.

Last night he slept 13 hours in his own bed, waking twice but we were persistent with him staying in his own room. I hope there's no waking tonight.

It was so stinkin' hot in Dalby that we could barely go outside the first day, there was lots of SOA watching which was a massive highlight, I'm addicted. The second day J and I made a trip to the lake to cool off, which was nice but really made me miss home and the beaches I take for granted most days. I don't think ill be going out there for the rest of summer, ill stick to my air on and beaches.